Self-Awareness

I consider myself very self-aware, especially over the previous few years.  Self-awareness is simply knowing oneself or learning something new concerning my temperament, gradually building to something resembling the whole picture.  What makes me tick?  Generally speaking, how would I react to any given situation?  Questions such as these are very important when becoming acquainted with one's own psyche and temperaments.  Mentioning character defects doesn't have to make for a nasty discussion.  To acknowledge having them is simply to confess our human nature.  One of my character defects is playing the martyr, resulting in wallowing in self-pity feeling sorry for myself.  My closest friends may justify some of this stating I've had some sorry crap happen to me over the years, stuff I didn't do or earn, so I have a right to feel sorry for myself.  Certainly I'm not the only one who may have been in the wrong place at the wrong time, or was framed for something I didn't do, but I don't have to cease living as a result of life happening beyond my control.  Sometimes life simply sucks.  At that point I simply acknowledge it and move on.  I could give numerous examples of this, but if the readers has been keeping up with any of the blog entries, then they are very well aware of how harsh life can be.  Hopefully soon I will move past allowing life to happen to me and I will go make life happen.  Until then, I will try to not wallow in my own muck and mire.  I am a creation of the Heavenly Father.

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