Existential Depression
The definition of Existential Depression: inner conflicts characterized by the impression that life lacks meaning. Ultimately my identity is in the Lord Jesus Christ, and life's meaning is to have a vibrant and fulfilling relationship with the same Lord. This is in spite of circumstances swirling around me. Some may argue reality sucks, but I posit that the spiritual kingdom encompasses the perceived reality of this terrestrial plane. Reality may "suck" due to a lack of or failing relationship with Yahweh God. This is where I am in life. Devoid of ego or a superiorty complex, I recognize the gifts with which God has so richly blessed me. The challenge is how do these gifts play out horizontally out of the richness of a vertical relationship with one I will call a Higher Power. So much of my life has been spent in bitterness over lack of resources and opportunities to use the talents, skills, and abilities that are innately bestowed upon yours truly. A lack of fi