Life's Fluidity

On many occasions, I wonder what life would have been like had I actually got what I wanted.  Growing up as a little kid, I had a vision for life that may seem fairly run-of-the-mill: college, career, family, hobbies, and so much more.  None of it came to pass...or at least not to the degree desired.  (The vision I had was very detailed.  For the sake of this blog entry, I generalized what the vision for life included.)  What I didn't factor into the equation was the fact life simply happens.  Yours truly never quite learned, until much later in life, that one must roll with the punches.  That doesn't mean I lose sight of the end goal or heart desires, but I must also not wreck myself trying to force a square peg into a round hole.  Somewhat recently, I came to the conclusion that maybe what I wanted out of life wasn't God's Will.  Apart from telling people about Jesus, I don't have the faintest idea what God's Will is for my life or how that Will is to play out in the world around me.  Abba Father has given me so many innate giftings (skills and abilities), it breaks my heart to see them go to waste.  Guess I must continue to pray for the revelation of what the Great Shepard wants me to do through His call on my life.  In the meantime, I have been enjoying watching Him work not only in my life but also in the world around me.  On August 18th, I celebrated fifteen years of sobriety from alcohol.  Abstinence from alcohol has provided an opportunity to grow in character and integrity thus increasing and strengthing emotional sobriety.  Then I moved on to part-time employment with Big Dave's Cigars.  (Unfortunately, the job with Run On! by JackRabbit didn't work out.)  From the very first time I set foot in the store, I felt as if I was putting on an old pair of comfortable shoes.  I fit right in from the very start.  Of course I still need to learn the layout of the merchandise and the customer base; however, I have taken my place in the store as if I had always been there.  Then I was richly blessed with a new set of wheels: a 2021 Chevrolet TrailBlazer.  After ten months of riding the bus, bicycling, and asking for rides, I now have independent transportation.  Running errands has become so much easier.  In addition, I can participate in activities that were difficult or impossible to take part in due to not having the means to travel.  Right now I am in an oasis of life...green pastures and still waters.  What's next?  Who knows, but I am continuing to trust in the Lord Jesus for His provision and guidance.  Where are you in life?  Is your life's compass pointing to Jesus for His direction?  Seek Him...He wants to be found!

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