Stuck and Unsettled

Many goals and plans have been made, but very few, if any of them, seem to be coming to fruition.  In other words, nothing is going as planned or the way I would like it.  Therefore, I feel stuck.  Forward progression has stopped and I am stagnating.  In addition, the sense of peace and contentment I desire and would like to achieve has been very elusive.  Another translation...I feel unsettled.  Stuck and unsettled.  Wow!  Not a good place.  Momentarily living in limbo is at odds with good mental and emotional health.  In trying to keep my wits about me, I certainly don't want to make any knee-jerk reactions.  The proper course is in always thinking and responding to each and every day as it presents itself.  This is in view with a faith in God which believes His Almighty plan will unfold as He sees fit.  However, for the time being, I'm right here...stuck and unsettled.  In the meantime, maybe I can find relief as I unburden my soul and find solace in an activity or friends.

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